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December 30, 2005
A couple of weeks ago, when I first started to write this thought, I had just written to a friend that for once I am in a place where I don't feel as if I'm waiting for my life to happen. I was pretty proud of it. Things weren't happening to me, I was happening to them. And although there was something to look forward to on the horizon, I felt that that was part of the life I was leading, not the one I was waiting for. You see, I was always waiting for life to begin. When I was young and moved to Dallas, I wanted a car to drive so I could actually have some control. In high school, it was college I sought. In college, it was 21. 21, it was a serious ladyfriend. Serious ladyfriend, a better one. And on and on. But the point was that at that very moment, when I was about to go to law school, when I was about to finish exams, when I was about to graduate, all the way through sometime late this fall, I was always waiting for the next thing to happen so that I could finally be living life. Woody Allen, I believe said something along the lines of life being what happens to you while you make plans. And that's what I was doing. So finally, the other day, I had this moment where I thought that I finally had it. I'm healthy, my family is well, and I am living an adult life, about to be married. Nothing wanting. Sure there's ambition, and absolutely, I don't plan to sit in this shared office or in this particular sphere of industry forever, or live in one apartment for the rest of my days, but I am happy with what I'm doing, who I know, where I'm going. And so for my new year's resolution, I promise only to continue living my life, rather than waiting for it.This was Perspective , and it appeared on December 30, 2005 9:34 PM.
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BUT, you are ging to stay in the same city- RIGHT?
Posted by: Torrie at December 30, 2005 6:33 PM
Oh, heck yeah.
Posted by: New Blue Shoe at December 30, 2005 7:09 PM
I have been feeling like my life is happening since the first time I fell in love. Even though I suppose my professional career is in abeyance until I finish school, the sense I had up until the Fall was of watching other people’s lives more than of living my own. There is something about the ups and downs of a romantic relationship that reminds me persistently that I am alive, whether that reminder is a welcome note on my happiness or an unwelcome one on my pain.
Posted by: PG at January 4, 2006 4:45 AM
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